chain smoking.

even when i dont talk to you , i think about the good times. then i think about how mad i am for how you think about me. im not dramatic because i dont be telling people our situation, if you think so then your dumb, i tell it to my close friends & apperently your just around them all the time it feels like its said to everyone. haha understand? i dont tak or hangout with them much anymore because of YOU. happy? because i am the happiest nigga in the fucking world. & why does it matter if im talking to anyone else anyways? im a nigga you tell me shit , & dont leave me out in the dark. i dont know how you feel. & never do anymore. theres no communication anymore. & apperently i dont think there will be ever again. thanks for throwing a rock at my head.

we got the power of stacking.

" dont do something you love, do something that works"

career wise ... thats right i suppose.

" work hard now into something that works so you can do what you love later"

understand? erhm, i didnt get it at first too.

trio.

i love love love love love love love us. its always a fun day or night with you two. & i hope you guys know that we are something strong and please dont ever leave. please dont ever change the love, please dont. we worked into this & this is yet to become the world'd rulers. haha. " never found another group as good looking as us" seriously , we are big headed sometimes. but oh man im a jigga man & you two are the boss's boss. haha, diem nguyen, lisa thi doan, you guys are the best foreva eva foreva evaaa? foreva evaaaaaaaa (:

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its makes me so mad how you are, it makes me mad how i am about you, it makes me so mad that when i think about the good times. i cry. i never intended for all this shit to happen. i never intended to fall so hard. for these past two weeks i have been climbing back up & on the way leaving myself a net for every foot deeper. i dont want to get hurt anymore & i intend not to. its my goal. i might be stupid for maybe letting the love of my life walk right by but i know what im missing. a heart ache just to happen? yeah .. i mean it comes with so much happiness & so much great joyousness but i really think i cant deal with the fact that i will get hurt so bad like that, no more long emo baths, no more cries at night, no more watching you sleep & tearing up. no more. just remember a friend is always here.

can you help me, tell me what you want from me, i lipped out to you..

myself & i

need my friends to show me who i am again, i lost myself & i uber miss the guy who i used to be.

hope

we always ask for hope & faith, but we dont get any in return. why is it that you dont get help until its the end or when its over. is it maybe you were suppose to do more? is it suppose to be just you & the help you need is actually in the back of your head? gawhs, i think im gonna stop bloggin. & turn into a photo gallery.

i just want to start over

one day, i'll pack up & leave without notice.

one day.

haha alright okay;

so im bitter, so im a bipolar crazy psycho motha f'

i noticed that i am ruthless to family & i am rude to my mother because she is stupid, & because i never hold the past but when it coms to her i remmeber everything she did & said to me, alot of people dont get how i could be so mad over little things, but i think its really not the little things i think its everyhting shes done & when she fucks up or irritate me i yell back for all the times i couldnt.

imagine a 5 year old waking up to their mother drinking to much at 3 am and calling you voer becaudse she sees your head sticking out to look, & she holds you tight saying her life sucks & why is she so stupid & why is her life so bad & why this & that and making me feel stupid.

like a revolver w/ 1 bullet.

sometimes there are only once change for a shot. either if its good or bad. sometimes thats just how things & the world works.

time;

i take one step & thats where it'll take me, im not going to walk backwards. thats just wrong. in life people always complain. in life people always smile. matter in fact i think they dont get a good balance between the two. its either they nag too much or they just always smile & bottle everything up for ages. but when you take a step smiling or naging you cannot go back otherwise its cheating. but what point i am trying to make is that when a person takes a step, well at least when i take a step foward i do not change my mind & i gow ith it, its like acting up to your own actions. for instance i said i am going to stay here for frienda, & i did. & look im manning up to my actions. gawhs. okay just saying.