rayleen [ aka chi hai ]

chi hai! you did absolutely everything for me because you know i am going through a rough ass patch & i wanna say thankyou for every little second you helped & your still helping, you let me forget the pain & worries that i go through, you let me smile again when i cant, i know your a good chi because we click, when you cry i tear up, haha guys dont cry! but you know i mean it means i dont ever want o see you hrut because it would hurt me too, im glad that we got to get closer. & i thank my sister for ever introducing you to me because i dont think my life would be this sunny without you, you are triuley a kind hearted person & you shuldnt be taken advantage of ever. people need to be greatful for what you do, & i say i am most greatful for everything youv'e done. i love you & dont ever change the fact you love me too! (: keep your heart, your head, & your smile up. you deserve to only be happy you enver do anything wrong & you never are mess up. your a really nice girl. & thankyou for caring so much. your a great person & dont forget that i love you (:

vannary khoy [ aka homie G skillite ]

what can i say about you? you've been there for me thick & thin. when i was weak & when i was strong, when i am smiling & when im at your front porch crying in the rain. you've always helped me with everything you could do & thats the thing i remember from you the most is that you love me & that if you can do it you will help me. & i really appreciate every liittle thing you do i really do & you have no clue how much i have love for you, & if you ever needed anything i would try to do it also, i love you till the my heart bleeds or even when tis flying haha imagine a heart floating around then speeding in the air haha idk, but anywhoo i dont mean to go emotional but ever since your mom pasted away i've been thinking about you everyday. everytime i look at my keys i see your moms key chain that she gave me. i have so much respect & love for your family if you guys ever needed anything you know i would dig for it until my nails start bleeding. theres never a point where i was crawling you didnt help me, i feel like your my gaurdian , your the person who is suppose to keep my legs stable. to think of it everyone one has thier part in my life. its just you are my backbone. you keep me alive & you keep me smiling even when im crying you make me smile, just thankyou for everything. i love you.

itty bitty

you said, "SOOOO....I was reading your blog and I couldn't leave comments so I figured id leave one here lol... reading your blog just made me miss you lol. The thought process of you already leaving in 2 days has yet to kick in. But im kinda use to trying to suck it all in and keep a smile on. I will def miss you everyday that your gone but I know we'll keep in touch always. And of course it won't be the last time I see my squishy :-). I love you sooooooo much & I wish nothing but the best for you. Hope your new adventure in cali brings you so much more oppurtunities. I know that your the one who has taught me to make the best of everything & live life to fullest and I thank you for that. Without you I probably wouldn't be as strong as I am today. Thank you for everything & I love you "mucho grande"..(just like vanny says) ....I don't wanna make this tooo long cuz im at work haha but just wanted to leave u somethin to read once u check ur msgs haha.. Woop woop!" & all i got to say is that i love you and i will go on with my adventures. i will catch oppurtunities and i am only living my life fullest because i got my lovely friends like you to be by my side loving & caring for me. at first we werent that close because youw ere more of my sisters friend, but im really glad you met her, because if you had never met her i would have never met you & i think my life would be uber stupid without you. who would i imagine doing stuff as cartoons in my head? haha who would i call my itty bitty, & who would stop be from being bad? you keep the good side of me out & keep the bad side in. i know god must have sent you in my life so i keep doing good & keep my heart kind. you teach me to be greatful & to be well tempered haha, because we all know i get my temper from my mother. but i just want to say thankyou for everythign you have done & i love you & your family. muchos grande (:

ryan johnson-ng [ aka ryry ]

you are the best brother that i've never had & i know i always vent out to you & i know you do get sick & tired of it but you are the only person who hold it in & just put out the negitive & support me, i have never got a support as strong as i get it from you, your like my foundation to my day basically haha that sounds homo, but seriously. i know this journal, bloggin, wrting bout each others is homo & girly but it has to be said somehow & i really do love you bro. your a great person with a great heart. & dude you really have a big place in my heart your really one of the only ones you understands me, & no one ever understand how stupid we can get haha, drinking or not we always have fun, even though we've bee drinking alot dont mean shit & dude dont worry bout pac man because he wikll be superb. i love how our family is just always so welcoming to each others usually it doesnt work that way a parent always hates one another you know? but we got so much family love around us its hard not to be brothers hahha. but man just keep it up, & i just wanna let you know your the best.

tnp

throughout the whole years of our lifes you were the one to keep pushing me down into the dirt & making me chase the butterflies, but im not even trippin. because as i said, " I HATE YOU WITH ALL MY GUTS, BUT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART" & its the truth. no matter how far life goes in i'll still have you around in my heart. when i see you i wanna hug you then punch you its funny to me kinda. but you are really a good sister. no matter how much bullshit we gave each others we still end up on the same page, family never leave each others. as for our mother i dotn know what to say thats prolly where we get along the most, is when we argue with our silly mother. you know that one day i will get things done & i will put my name somewhere & when i do my sister, we would live in relaxation. i hate us always living in struggle and always emotionaly about how stressed out our days go by. im sick & tired of it & i know you are too. no matter what you do just keep that head up & at least domething beause everyone has a purpose and i know yours is a really big one. i swear your the most best advice giver but when it comes to you taking your won words in your hard headed as hell. i think if it wasnt for you i wouldnt be so much wise. your a big part of who i am today & so is mother but i swear you gave me alot of hope and you were the one who first opened my eyes on how life really is & i thankyou for that. i thanyou for just being my sister, & god knows i love you. tnp, keep that smile on your face.

lisa thi doan

my best of bestfriends, she incrediably awesome. theres nothing i would ever want more in a friend. we went to church together this one time & we were takling about how god helped us in the past & i cried & said god helped me by sending lisa to me, if it wasnt for her i would have killed myself a long time ago, & thats the truth.& the best part is how we can do the most randomest shit ever & dont care, i love just laying there in bed talking about the randomest shit & then rnning to the kitchen & laughing whilew making food & talking about something stupid that happent that day or earlier that week haha. shes beautiful inside out & she brings me peace, she brings the best outta me. i cant live without her, i need to at least talk to her somehow or i'll eventually go crazyy, im so serious i start jumping around & yelling. without her hahha.a good thing about her is that she actually laughs at my jokes, & i always always feel welcomed even when shes a poopy head everything feels right still. never aleinated from her. & i would take a bullet for her, i would crash & burn for her, if she falls i'll record it like i did & have a thousand loughs over & over again . when i see her i see this half white half black angel haha like the ones on your shulders? just like that. haha but a beautiful ass wonderful person haha. and the thing is i miss our journeys , we would take the bus everywhere and just take pictures & just about do the littles things but have so much fun, i never ever had so much fun doing nothing. shes amazing & i know our book will not end.

f.thong

look at my flaws, look at my smile, look at how much her glow embraces me. i never met another one girl this great, i've never thought i would ever get someone a good as her. smiles everyday even when im tripping off stupid shit from my family & stupid people. i love how she can shift my day to a higher ground like a five speed stickshift. shes an amazing , beautiful, gorgeous, heartful, & down to earth kinda girl. i said to myself that i would never walk on ice holding anothers hand but when it comes down to walking on thin ice with her i know we'll make it. sad to say im leaving her for a bit to get my rest but i will come back because i dont ever want another person if its not her, i dont ever want to kiss another person, if its not her i dont even wanna lay in bed all day if its not with her. she may not take my compliments but i dont care i keep giving them, she may not like me opening her door but i will still try, because in this relationship i will not stop trying for her love. shes god's gift to earth & there is so much to say. i love waking up & seeing her face i love waking up & kissing her, say good morning. she completes me. & the best part is my friends all like her & believe that shes incredible, they rather see me with her than any other girl or guy. because shes my wife. & i can never get tired of her. she asked me the other day & asked me why i wasnt annoyed of her yet , i answered, " because i want to spend the rest of my life with you" & thats coming from the bottom of my heart. shes not no object i know that forsure. & she let her words be said. she jumps through fire rings for me & help me so much, i akhbfsghsiug wanna pinch her cheeks gawhs. haha okay ttyl. xoxo

crazyy

they crazyy, niggas carzyy, err;one crazyy.

gabe bondoc

i love his little "ello" haha im stupid. but its only because i said ello too.

soul speaking

just because jnp is a promoter now doesnt mean he doesnt still have his feelings or his careness for other people. we gotta live somehow. we gotta make it better than just doing nothing. im one who has to constantly do something or will DIE. if nothing comes your way for a very long time, & suddenly got gives you lemons , what'd you think i'd do? i would make some motha' effin lemonade! plus it makes money on the side. whats there to hurt when theres money involved am i right? we live in a world where they dont suck your blood for enjoyment anymore, no ... we live in a world where they take our hard earned cash. people are mad for money. i mean have you've seen what people say & do to get your money?! haha rediculous. but hey it happens right? you know what i miss the most? not only my money i've all had but the love i have gotten before. the older you grow up the more it seems that love is the hardest thing you can find. even in some friends you cant find. its really sad and true. i also miss the time where i thought there could be a way that my mother would wake up & breath to see what she is messing up on. shes in this fantasy land where every little drop of money comes around she gambles or buy beer or liqour with, & people asks me why am i an alcoholic .. i mean its no excuse but when its handed to you even from your own parents ... lmao yeah im gonna reject that. i looked at myself in the mirror & DID NOT SEE THE SAME GUY. at first i was scared. second i thought how did i change for so long & not realiazed it. answer is that i did, i was just ingoring reality. i use to always double think before act & always had so much manners. where did all that go? i was such a good wisdom giver, but now when i give advice it sounds like its not good enough. what happened to just regular hanging out, regular movie nights? i've been doing that & i tell you it feels good. i wanna stay young. & not grow up too fast. i want people to awknowlegde that im not a kid anymore but still knows how to have inocent fun. why does it always have to end up ," i need a drink, oh yeah me too etc.etc." i mean really? is life that bad sober? i dont know. i just need to know is there anyone out there who can love & care & worry & feel real anymore?

hassles

my main concern is always hassles because i am here standing, well sitting, to believe that god really has put me through every little extra mile just so my life would be easier later. but only god knows. all i do know right now is what i've been through. ever since i was young even just to get home i had to work around something, driving somewhere i had to work around something, never eating haha but always even to go school, get peace, go hangout. but i thought about it really .. like hecka got into it .. they sometimes arent hassles they are just inessities of getting things done. you can always have things come to you so easily then life wouldnt be life. no matter how much time ones put into it, its about how much ones gotten out of it.