things never change.

no matter how much you talk to them they dont hear. no matter how much you yell they will not change & no matter how much you show you got yourself & could go far away from them & no matter how much you leave them they still will not change. they will always be yelling over the stupid things. they will still be acting like they are half your age when they are suppose to be the wise ol' greatful one. but no. its never that way its never gonna be different. the reason why is that the old days were fucked up & stupid & didnt know better, you make mistakes for the future generation to know right? its always going to be like that & so it remains still the same. she can be sitting there drinking to herself crying & still i will just stand here watching her without hesitation just do nothing. it hurts to the point where i see her cry i dont want to do anything. she gave me pain & dont relieve her pain. btu the reaosn why i do is because her pasin is never from our family. it never is because she doesnt care about us, her pain is from all the niggas that walk in & out of her life. standing there around family parties like she is still strong with her so called husband. growing up was hard. harder than hard. it was going up a 90 degree hill with a stick. waking up early in the middle of the night & hearing the fights, hearing the clutter hearing the mess that they be making makes you wonder how did you ever get through it then later you jsut think it was easy. the more pain you through the strong you will get. & eventualkly things will change. because when you think it isnt going to change you change. & when you change you can walk away from everything with no hesitation. its not called heartless or self conceited. its called things will change. so take that walk. for the better.