me;random post.

-i love to be in my boxers only.

-i cant understand how big the universe is.

-i dont think lil wayne deserves all the kudos he gets.

-i hate people who loves fashion but dont go along with the trends.

-i hate gluttony.

-i cant stand wasting food so i always stuff myself.

-i still like chris brown haha.

-i have a fascination for the sea world.

-i love to update myself on music.

-i hate wearing socks that are loose.

-i hate how my conscious fucks up my concentration all the time.

-i hate how NOTHINGS FAIR.

-i always tried so hard to fit in & when i finally stopped trying thats when i got noticed.

-i am NOT popular people just like to talk about stories & i just so happen to be around when a good peice happens, i just like to keep the good times roll haha.

-when i was in 5th grade i got into a fight with a big black guy because i won playin some hoops against him & he got mad, & i whooped his ass, i was a gangster baby.

-i never grew until my sophomore year of highschool.

-i have shaved countless times but my stache is still a baby.

-i look better in person, i dont like any of my pictures but one.

-i ask myself who would i be if i stayed in la.

-i always wanted to know how it would feel to have my real father around.

-i hate the way i dress sometimes.

-i dont like people who look " alike" to me.

-i hate how there is a determine "cool" way of things. bc im a klutz.

-if i could be anything in the world.. i would like to be a pristine condition mercedes clk racecar. 

-if i could change anything about me, i would not choose to be bi.

-i really wish i could cared more like how i use to.

-i want a love so real that i could wake up crying because i am happy.

-i love texture, its way better than plain & boring. 

-i kinda want to become an interior designer.

-i also kinda want to become a professional hair stylist. ew.

-if i could meet anyone it would be adam sandler or rev run, so some of their "coolness" can rub off on me.

-i have insomnia, i always sleep between 3am-6am everyday, i may have said gnight but i will lay there.

-i prefer calm music then booty music. 

-i am more a chill person than a party person, but i always end up bring the party with me.

-i like to think i could sing but i know i cannot sing.

-sometimes i think i am not who i am & im actually a retarded person & i am imagining i am this person. haha. call my crazy but i really think that its just because sometimes i get too much attention that i dont know what to think. & i think its just all in my imagination, i suppose i have my own wierd ways of coping with things. 

-it may seem like im not the type to have stage fright but i do.

-i love autumn because i think of love during the red & orange leaves falling in a park.

-i like to be outrageously romantic in my mind.

-i talk so much shit in my mind, but its more like truth, shit talking is for people who cant control their mouth piece.

have fun reading the little facts bout a crazy guy named jhon nguyen phillips.

infatuation

i love how in this world people always fall for someone THEY DONT NEED OR CANT GET. sucks. everyone has their own faces, one to the civil world & one to their close ones. & sadly, one side is always really horribly ridiculously rude obnoxious or just plain ugly. i hate the fact that beautiful wonderful people has a bad side always, i really wish i was a nicer person i am really judgmental & that is why i think i have bad judgment. i always end up going for the ones i think that can i can somehow fix or corrupt haha I AM HORRIBLE. there was ONE person who caught my eye & i never got attached to & that s my secret to keep of who the being is, but i held back because i saw the greatest fall & heartbreak so i left it be. but i know my chance will come back, without attaching strings to keep that person around. i just wish life was easy as abc but it isnt. & that is more than upsetting.

@jbouddy

i KNOW i already love you. your straight up REAL, & i can talk you in every way about everything haha. just know i may not have alot to offer on my plate yet but whatever it is that you need, i will do for you because i know you would do the exact same. i love how we clicked so well in the little time we've known each others. gawhs. i told you i'd blog about you.

diem nguyen

i havnt blogged about you & i bet you broke you into pieces, i am very sorry about that hunny. but you know you always always will have a special place in my heart & no matter how dumb you may be & no matter how much you know i am rude to you, you know i do it out of love. i guess i jst see you as a little sister. i cannot just help seeing you cry or even be hurt in any little way i REALLY cant. i just want the best for you & thats all i ever want. we had so many stupid days & night that i will never forget. it may seem like i dont remember mch, i do remember the important things trust me. i have this thing where i live in the past in my mind. i really do & its only the good little things that counts in my head. like lisa's favorite song .. i will wait in the pouring rain just for you if you ever needed anything, fuck that even when there is a natural disaster i will still be there for you, just make suer you remember who really loves you in the world hunny. & it may seem like life is a game, but it really isnt . it really isnt all it is, is a movie. there are so many chapters in our life but nothing is scripted. we will be the actors in our life & trust me you are ONE OF THE MAIN CHARACTERS. haha. i hope that made you laugh but i seriously. & you know i will always have a shoulder for you or either a hug waiting for you or either a cloud for you to hop on & we can fly together. i WILL be there for you no matter what. i love you diem nguyen. (:

i love to hate.

i love to hate. how much i hate people who act like they dont know what is in front of them, i hate people who dont have any respect for themself nor the people around them. I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK. this is my little explosion. i hate people who dont know how to keep their attitude positive & excuse me if im a little shitter right now but damn my life. i hate how things are & the only thing keep me happy is my bestfriends & family. plus a few other great people i have recently met. but i must got to say i wish people would say more. i wish people was more real i wish there was a thing called uptopia you know what im talkin bout? some real shiet. im tired of living in a world of lies & closed mouth, why cant we all be the same. what if everyone was the same? would it be all good? or would we be all bad so bad that it'll be so good? i dont know. i wish we all could just have no rules in having fun, the right way of course.

people in the world..

I am always people watching to see what else is in the world and you may never know what you might miss but one thing I always see is people treating each others rudely. man o man. I have my share but the amount of people putting up with people who are jacked up.. till thhey are no longer there but they still put up for others who act like the ones who hurted them the first time. I don't I suppose my moral of this is you can't hold back and just do you. be real and stand up for what you believe in even if it means you need to stand alone. usually I say keep trying and you'll eventually get through but don't try just do it :)

addictive.

what makes it so addictive? what makes you keep coming back? is it the feeling? is it the pleasure? or is it the fact that you need something to be addicted to? people are unique because we all have our different ways & our different hobbies that we are addicted to. so when i think about the work addict i think about what if we were never addicted to everything at all? would we all be really laid back & chill, & try out everything? would be more open minded? i dont know, & i will never find out. only god will know. 

need the sun to come out

i want the sun to hella come out, so like kmeas "daddy" says so we can just run into the water haha, i miss the sexy hot weather, i do not liek the cold because i shiver like a motha fcker.

club kolbeh

i thought it was alright for my first there, i would have aot to say to the owner though the dance floor isnt even a dance floor, its wack, i lie how there is a smoking spot though, thats thoughtful & secured. but the lights werent crack'n , i swear if me & my friends wasnt faded it would have been bammer. but oh wells. club kolbeh until your fixed i will not come back.

sweetie told me to look at this

& i think you guys should check it out, my girl knows how to scare me with food! haha

http://thisiswhyyourefat.com

chasing pavevents

oh man... I do not know what to do with you. your on my mind 24/7 and im always happy to talk to you. I just hope we can roughly put time into this and make this work. your different also and I admire that so much. beautiful inside out. and to tell you the truth I love how truthful you can be and never hiding anything and you don't hold back in saying anything.

pathetic.

can you please stop bothering everyone i know & tryna get the fuck on them. & tryna suck suck everyones cock & etc. i swear. okay maybe that was really offensive but im sorry i just am tired of hearing all my friends come to me & telling me they are scared of you or either just tired of your shit. i swear, i know you have " other better " things to do with your " famous" life.  okay i think im done for now.

broke broke broke

we live in a society where everything is falling and a ressession is soon to be damn near. I was sitting in the car with lisas family and lisas dad was talking about how you can have an old car and be living good and still be able to pay rent go out to eat and etc. but when you have a nice house.car .etc.. you seem to always be broke.. I like how he really isn't materialistic and knows wsup. he's almost like the dad I never had. really though. and he makes the mot funniest remarks and jokes. he surely doesn't get enough attention and love he deserves. I pray to god the the world can think a little more like him and keep living with a good moral.

plan

sometimes you have to look at things in your life like a doll house life. you have to plan things & think about the things that might happen, & always have a plan b, c , etc. for you to keep going to got to see the shit thats coming your way. & noone ever knows whats coming but if you plan ahead & suggest things that might happen.. we would save alot of time. & worries. 

angel

god please give me the strength to walk, to breathe, to be sane through all the troubles in my life right now, please help my family, please help my friends, please show the unacknowledged people to be more consistent with their life because things will always get better. most of all please keep the good times roll because our lives are short so dont stop the positivity with friends everywhere. gawh. 

late night

late at night. im never tired. I should be though knowing that I've been working out three hours everyday of my week and feeling super buff and super cut. im loving it and feeling greater than ever because now I don't feel like shit. hahah. I really did feel like shit ealier even on my birthday. li mean looks is everything in the beginning so might as well look good right? hahah I would usually say don't trip about it and I don't care but I only said that because I wasn't fit or model looking. haha. I mean I still don't care but I do less hahah

i really need to drink less

haha i know i say that allll the time but i really do mean it this time. i woke up & i feel like i dont know what the fuck happened last night, crazy. ewy. i miss the days where i would so productive. i am NOT AT ALL anymore. okay maybe i am but not as much as i was before. i am begging to really thinking of moving back to my moms to have a quiet  little life. but we all know that cant happen, everywhere i go its horrible news. jeez. i wish i can be someone whos not as outgoing as me just for a day. so i can have peace and quiet. i miss the days when i was younger & didnt party so much, i had time to think all the time & i didnt blog like this, haha stupid blog diary. you make me feel crazy. i really DONT LIKE HATERS. why cant we all become friends or at least have a mutual line, shiet. i woke up to have two damn hickies. wtf is that shit. no more smoking & drinking. last time i did that i pulled my ex in the bathroom & told her i miss her. sadly its the truth. i hate love. i hate dating. i am in NO POSITION to date. esp. since its summer... uhh thats like suicide to fall in the summer, i mean there is someone im looking at, shes actually makes me smile alot. & thats a good deal. i dont smile enough apprently . her name starts with a C and ends with a N haha & she looks flip and laos, whoo! i was wrong shes not. my friend got played & tonight he wants to go to alki and chill. that sounds really good because i havnt done that in a long time. last time i did that was with ryan. i really miss ryan, him & my father is coming home soon though so im really just looking foward to that, oh! my grandpa moved to federal way!! he came all the way from florida, orlando to be with his family. haha makes me teary. awhh. ahaha i have such a big ass family. its going tos uck real bad when i move to cali ..  T.T

key word.

I don't know why people get so ugly not only phsically but mentally. people used to be so open minded and hearted but now all I can think of people talking about so much shit that's unrelivent or either just plain rude. idk. and I hate it when people play mind games. why can it be easy as a going on to b. we start something then let me know wsup and we will WORK for it you know? but a lot of people just havnt opened their eyes. sadly. idk. im tired goodnight wolrd. be back tomorrow morning.