infatuation

i love how in this world people always fall for someone THEY DONT NEED OR CANT GET. sucks. everyone has their own faces, one to the civil world & one to their close ones. & sadly, one side is always really horribly ridiculously rude obnoxious or just plain ugly. i hate the fact that beautiful wonderful people has a bad side always, i really wish i was a nicer person i am really judgmental & that is why i think i have bad judgment. i always end up going for the ones i think that can i can somehow fix or corrupt haha I AM HORRIBLE. there was ONE person who caught my eye & i never got attached to & that s my secret to keep of who the being is, but i held back because i saw the greatest fall & heartbreak so i left it be. but i know my chance will come back, without attaching strings to keep that person around. i just wish life was easy as abc but it isnt. & that is more than upsetting.