i havnt felt.

sucks to feel like this. i think i think too much. i think i doubt too much. i dont want to doubt anyone but i always would love to think that its going to last. but knowing that they are going to leave or that they are going to be away. or knowing there could be possiblities. it sucks. ive never liked anyone as much as i did now. its not that i dont want to be with you because surely its more than i want i know its going to happen that were bound to be going out. its the fact that i know your gonna leave and whats going to happen to me? i cant just stand here thinkin that its going to be okay to fall so hard like i am and just let it go like its nothing. it goes both ways you know. you want all of me & i want all of you but we know that wont happen. your moving. how am i going to set my legos down & you move the holding sheet away from me. i dont want to crumble down. but i do know i want you to be around, & i do know i am foolish. but your more & everything i want & need physically, mentally, & emotionally. i know this is going to be the biggest cut because already jsut sit here tearing up for you. when everything is perfectly fine.