i can actually

BREATHE, smile, laugh & jump on couches and dont care about it. ahahha. [sorry stephanie i didnt mean to break your couch] but leaving my mothers house every time FEELS SO GOOD. to be away from her & not hearing about her shit & not worrying about her getting too drunk & im the one having to deal with the bullshit, but the sad part is that every time i do leave, i leave my sisters also & then i barely talk to them & then thats where i go see them more & more & get myself back into this loop . so i thought about it. i want to do something so productive so khfbshf idont know so amazingly money gathering so i can become a millionaire & take custody of my three little sisters. i think it has resulted of this as an outcome from my mothers behavior every night. this past week ive had NO time to think about my personal life. ive been just ignoring all facts & all opinions. its like my body is moving & reacting, but in my mind you have no idea. i feel like ive been on cloud 9 like as if i am seriously happy. & jsut a few minuts ago i thought about why is that? haha because of my great friends. i may not reply our texts & it may be hard to grab a hold of me. but YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW i appreciate each & everyone of ya'll esp you vanny. welps out to another night of jnp. tune in later.