too much?

you have no idea how much i want us to work, but its the fact that when im in a relationship with a guy i turn ugly, and i become this green monster that gives you all sort of attitude but also distant myself. it sucks. i wish you could understand how i work. i with you weren't so aggressive, i wish you acted like cupcake. she comes when she wants to & she goes as she pleases. but when i cuddle with her shes always there for the meanwhile. & when i wake up shes there. thats what i like. im not saying im a distant person but matter over fact. you will never get me.